Its official: it is possible to be bored even when you are in a completely foreign country, surrounded by unfamiliar things. I have spent much of the morning looking at the classified ads in Toronto to see if there are any jobs that a) I am qualified for and b) I actually have a remote speck of interest in doing. It turns out that there aren’t, so I switched to the real estate ads to see if I would be able to afford an apartment on my measly salary of zero dollars. As it turns out, either the housing situation in Toronto is worse than I thought, or the Star has lousy listings, because everything cost well over a thousand dollars, even for shitty basement apartments.
I was prompted to do all of this searching when I have started to wonder a bit about what I will be doing once I get back to Canada. Dan’s father recently offered to pay for him to finish up his degree at Concordia, although Dan has decided that he wants to switch programs, so he may still have another couple of years to go. For me, I’m not entirely sure what this means: either I am going to have to get yet another crap-tastic job in Montreal, and suffer through one last frigid, depressing Montreal winter, or I will go back to Toronto and find a job that actually appeals to me in some minute way… or that is the hope anyway. I find the options somewhat less than appealing, since the former means being miserable on a daily basis at work at the latter means being miserable on a daily basis at home. However, as Dan says, there really isn’t any point in worrying about it now, since what will happen will happen and there isn’t a whole lot to be done about it.
Things are quiet here at the clinic. As I mentioned, Ramadan has started, so there are much fewer patients coming in during the day. The health workers have been out supervising a study that the Government of India is funding to determine whether or not the water-affected people should get free health care. Unfortunately the study is being conducted by some group that has absolutely no interest in seeing justice for the water-affected people, and so they are doing a terrible job of it. One of the health workers from Sambhavna who has been sent to observe them doing the survey has been secretly recording footage of them on her cell phone, and it is absolutely appalling how little care they are taking in the study. The questionnaire is seven pages long, and the surveyors sometimes only take a few minutes to fill out the whole thing; they guess people’s ages, they skip entire sections and sometimes pages, they don’t bother to weigh or measure people properly. At one point a woman complained that she has cancer, and the doctor just ignored her and took her blood pressure and said she was healthy. Anyway, I’ve been slowly finishing the pamphlets on breast self-exam and menopause. I had a good meeting with the two gynecologists earlier this week, who were very helpful in telling me which changes should be made for the BSE pamphlet. Now I have to track down the health care workers to get them to take a look at, and translate the menopause pamphlet. At any rate, most of my days have been spent trying to colour in the pamphlets, or attempt to draw things that look like people, which is becoming less than stimulating. So when I complain of boredom, that is why.
I think that I would much prefer to be out and about, trying to do things within the community and interacting with people, but the whole Hindi thing makes that somewhat impossible. I have started up in my Teach Yourself Hindi book again, in a vain attempt to understand verbs and their conjugations. It turns out that my Hindi has actually improved since I got here, and I have added a number of words and phrases to my vocabulary that I hadn’t even noticed, so that is promising. Although I am still a far cry from actually understanding more than about 3% of what people say to me.
Apparently this week has been a festival for the Hindu god Ganesh (that’s the one that looks like and elephant, and therefore the only one I recognize). There are these little makeshift temples set up all around the city for him, particularly in the Chowk, but also in people’s homes and front yards. In fact, Vikki and little Vishal’s family has one in their front yard! You know how I know that? Because there is also a set of loudspeakers attached to the temple thingie, which blare music until about twelve o’clock every night. All I can say is thank god it has cooled off enough that we can sleep with the windows closed, because it noisier than living next to a bunch of frat boys for about two hours every night! Anyway, the festivities are supposed to be over in a couple of days, so that will be the end of that… until next week when there is a similar celebration for another god and people will set up statues of him.
Sareeta wanted us to come and visit her house on Wednesday, in particular to see her family’s own little Ganesh temple. I couldn’t help but have visions of myself sinking waist-deep into the mud outside of her house after the heavy rains the night before. So, in an effort not to be led around by the hand and treated like a particularly incompetent two-year-old, I wore my trusty Chuck Taylor’s for the walk there. I haven’t worn anything but flip-flops in so long I forgot how much easier it is to walk in actual shoes! Anyway, I succeeded in not sinking this time, and anyhow most of the mud had dried up since the previous night. It turned out that, as usual, Sareeta had plans for us that she had not bothered to divulge before the trip to her house, so we were lead to the Chowk on something of a hunt for the dozens of Ganesh temples set up all throughout. I have decided that I do not like having my hand held, and am becoming increasingly annoyed at the various people who try to impose this on me, particularly when I feel as though I am being led around like a dog on a leash, which despite the fact that she is eight years younger than me, Sareeta manages to make me feel like. Luckily Prabjit was there to take over the hand-holding duty, so I was off the hook this time. I’ve noticed that it is a form of affection between friends of the same sex here in India (although heaven forbid that a couple of the opposite sex hold hands. They’d probably be stoned to death). But when I first arrived here I couldn’t figure out how there were so many openly gay men walking around everywhere holding each other’s hands until I realized that all of these guys were just friends. Or I guess that’s the official line anyway. I wonder if there is a word for “gay” in Hindi. There isn’t in Mandarin/Cantonese. Anyway, I don’t like having my hand held, it annoys the crap out of me, especially when I’m keeping watch for motorbikes and rickshaws flying towards me from every direction, and have to be able to jump out of the way at a seconds notice.
After the first five or six Ganesh temples Prabjit, Derek and I had seen enough Ganeshes, but Sareeta and her friend Pinkie were ready to Ganesh-spot all night long if need be. When it started raining around eight o’clock we insisted that we had to go back to the clinic for a late night meeting with Rachna. It turned out that the guard had thought that we weren’t coming back to the clinic for dinner, so he had sent Shanti Bhai on her way. We went directly back to Manohaur (which is right next to where we had just left) to eat. Dinner on the whole was very good, as usual. I had my first plate of french fries since I got here, and they weren’t half bad. Unfortunately, as I was snacking on a few final pieces of vegetable kote to finish up, I didn’t notice as I “snacked” on an entire chunk of a chili that had been fried up with the kote. As soon as it hit my poor, weak, British stomach, I was quite sure that it was going to be rejected and spewed back onto my plate, so I looked ill and made for the bathroom. Fortunately I didn’t vomit up my perfectly good dinner, but I’ll think twice before I eat the kote again.
Earlier this week I put on a pair of pants that had one of those furry caterpillars lodged in the hem. I didn’t notice it until I was downstairs eating breakfast and my ankle had this rather urgent burning feeling and I looked down to see that the stupid thing had embedded about a zillion little spores into my ankle. I tried washing them off, but to no avail, so my ankle continued to have this unpleasant burning/itching sensation all day. At about three o’clock I asked Dr. Jay what the hell was wrong with it, quite convinced that it was only a matter of time before my foot feel off. He laughed at me and told me to go and get an anti-histamine from the medicine counter, which I forgot to take anyway, and I still have the full use of my foot, so don’t worry. However, I now check the inside of my pants every morning, because it could have been much worse if had been somewhere else inside my pants…
Holy shit, we interrupt this broadcast to announce that I have lost almost 20 lbs. since I got here. That is insane. I guess that is what happens when you don’t like what is served to you three meals a day, and you spend the rest of your time sweating and dreaming of real pizza and maybe, just maybe, a little bit of nice, sharp cheddar cheese.